Its a new start to the final end.

Wow. I didn't really think that one year could pass by so fast. I didn't really bother much about blogging in 2010 because I had alot of things in my mind. Mainly school work. But nonetheless, I'm back to blog again. Reading all my old posts makes me wanna write a story again. Oh well. Where shall I start off?

2010 has been a pretty rough year. From being tricked into joining MLM, heavy weightage of school work and having to do alot of stupid stuff and I meant really stupid stuff, this year I'mma try to change alot of things for myself. One month has passed since the beginning of 2011. It has been coming around pretty alright.

This week has only one day of school. Due to CNY that falls on thurs and fri, the principal of SP decided to declare wed a school vacation day!! WOOHOOO!!! But damn it, next week its pretty much a glimpse of hell as I'll be having 3 quizes, 1 lab test on tues and 2 end of module test on wednesday!!! Plus my OS report submission is on Tuesday as well!! Where's the justice in this?? GOSH!!! So I guess I can't be writing long. I'll have to wait till the week is over then I'm left with 2 more end of module test... I can't wait for the 3rd of March..

A new semester, A change of lifestyle

Last month or so, I've been attached to one of the most ridiculous companies I could've ever think of. Imagine being in a computer engineering course, and then the school attach u to a telephone operator job. Who would'nt be pissed? But I took the job. I guess I never really like it much until I got a cough and took leave on Saturday. Then followed by the Wednesday with an MC. The company then kicked me out so I'm with no ITP then. It was so disheartening as I plan to just sulk up to the stress load of phone calls which has no relation to benefit me in my course. I had to find another.

Mr Lucas said they gave me another chance and I already had a company in mind, Cheeyong's aunt company, AceCom Tech Pte Ltd. So I was told to come in on Wednesday and start from there. At least, I could see some relations to my course. Harddrive specifications, Ram, memory but I was assigned to a telemarketer post. Damn. But these past few weeks, I was only given a task to do a combined price list. It was quite tedious but I had it done by the last week. By the time it ended, I was youtubing, facebooking and surfing the net. Haha. That's so cool. Right now, its my last day and I'm not sure the supervisor is even aware of it. Anyway its been a great experience working in a company though not much learned but the experience there was gained.

This new semester sparks off a new motive, persevere, do well, desire never to die and the will of steel. I will use the power of hope to never give up. And I wish u all the best as well.

Worst ITP I could get.

At first, when my ITP was decided, it was in a company called ForceOne Security. Sounds cool to me. But at the week before ITP, the company declined our invitation. So I was quite worried about it. Then comes the next company called Superinternet. I can predict doing router configurations and wireless connection setups.

So during the first day of attachment, I wore smart casual and went to the company. I reported at 9am but had to wait for the boss to arrive at lik 10.15am. To her surprise, she didn't know that we're attached to her company. So I was like WTF??? She gave me an interview and asked me a few questions about my education. Of course there are some things I haven't learn but she expects us to know by judging ther looks on her face. So I'm being sent back for the day.

In the evening, I got a call from the person in charge of ITP saying that my attachment for Superinternet is cancelled and I've been posted to a new company called Misa Travel. This is a travelling agency so what the hell an I suppose to do to imply wat I've learnt in school? FUCK! But I had no choice to accept it as they couldn't find me another ITP so if i were to reject this, I have to find one ITP myself. Damn...

Second day of work, I met with Dickson who similarly share the same fate as me and we got an interview from the boss of Misa Travel, Mr Kenny. He accepted us into the company and I was a bit relieved. But this was soon to disappear as he asked me if I could take the job as a phone operator. I thought it would be nothing too stress or hard so I accepted it.

I went into the office and damn, the whole office is full of girls. I was like the only guy, the only malay and the only newbie there. Mr kenny introduce me to my supervisor, Ms Daljeet and she assigned me to this girl from St' Nicholas named Linghui. She was quite hesistant to teach me but she did anyway. She manage to coach me and I did try to get the hang of it.

Day after day pass by, I find the job meaningless to my course. for the whole 9 hrs, I sat in the office answering phone calls, attending to customer's bookings, listening to them babbling about our company. Yada Yada. Screw them. And there are a few girls who work the same as me, coached me too. But I really felt like a burden to them. I hate this feeling. I felt like I'm not welcomed becos of my unclearity about the whole system.

Then it comes yesterday, everything was going to be alright. I went to Friday prayers and prayed that God gives me the patient and cool down my heart if there's any stubborn customers. I also ask 'Him' to gimme the strength to endure the mental stress for 6 weeks. But when I came back, I already received one angry customer but it wasn't on my behalf so I'm innocent. But come around 6 plus, there's a customer that asked me if I was the consultant. I just agreed and I took down the particulars and at the end, I said I'll pass this info to my ticketing staff and they'll call him back immediately. He then became furious and started scolding me and asking me to pass him to the consultant. So I pass to Apple. She then approached me and said if I passed her the sales lead but I got so angry i deleted it. Shit. So she just walk away and after a few mins, Daljeet called and told me the matter. I greatly apologised but was so fucking angry at that guy. Before I left, I received one more nasty customer, fuck. I hate this. FUCK. I HATE BEING A TELEPHONE OPERATOR. Worst of all FUCK, its not even related to computer engineering! Wats the point of this job? My itp is meaningless...

A goal to reach.

March is gonna be one of the toughest month. After weeks of stress over the exams and projects, it all ended on the 4th of march. The burden finally being lifted off my shoulders. I can say that I did my very best in the exams and I'm sure to get good grades for it!!! All those staying back in school, night mugging and brain squeezing finally pays off. YES! Now all i can think of is to enjoy and celebrate!


But sadly I only have like 4 days till I have ITP. Its my attachment and I'm being posted to this company called Superinternet which helps to configure router and wiress network configuration. Seems pretty hard but I'm just gonna take the offer. So Monday, 9am, smart and casual at International Business Park. Damn. I just hope I get to go back early and the job wouldn't be as stressful.


And also this month, I'm going extreme on my abs and back!!! I'm gonna get those packs workout!!! Deadlifts, lats pulldown. I'm gonna get those muscles. Wish me good luck ya? Bench press manage to tip off the 23 kilo margin. Impressive.


But just today, someone had just lost her crush. Man. The story is not clear since she doesn't want to explain to me the details in full but i respect that. I guess ur principle is wat made him gave up on u and find a new girl. Don't cry. Come on. Seeing a cheerful person like u cry is like a Flower withering right in front of my eyes. Even though u think I might be joking, but damn it I'll be there if u ever need to vent ur anger U need a punching bag, a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear, I'll be there. Becos when I see u cry or sad, then wat's the point of being happy when a friend in need is in despair? take care aite? and smile for me :)

The feeling of emptiness....

For the past 19 years, I went through Valentine day without a single date and for the past few years, I wondered when is it gonna be my turn but I bet the time is not right. So I don't find the necessity to have a relationship.


But these past few weeks, there's a feeling, a feeling of hollow, empty and loneliness that devulges my heart. So I kept wondering why and why and why. Did some research on this and even watch a few clips or movies about it. But all of those just made me worst!!! The feeling of not being able to hug someone when u need to most. The feeling of not being able to talk to someone while being comforted when u need it most. The feeling of not being able to sit beside someone while knowing that she's the only one u love the most. That's feeling I had never experienced before. But as I watch my friends, in the movies or even in novels about love, those were some awesome feelings.


Many had asked me, why Dan? Why are u still single. Are u gay? Are u scared? The truth is I don't know. There are a couple of old experience that I find myself being 'in love'. Sec 3, I fell for this girl older than me by 2 years. I was kinda dumb for not being able to harden my balls and ask he out for a date. As a result, my good friend got her. Wat a failure. Then Sec4, I fall for this girl, a junior of my basketball team. She's a unique chinese girl. I admit I liked her very much. But in the end, she played with my feelings and went off with a guy. OMG. How stupid or weak can I be? Being toyed, being fooled, being nice, being shy..... All of these just backfired. So I try finding myself to like someone but if I don't like her, I don't find the reason to date her.


After reading some notes on attraction, I find out I have to do make the first move. I had never tried it before. So I decided with eye contact. I practised a few times and yes, some attractive women do smile back :) But that's not the point. So I had to find myself a date. After doing so, I tried to keep the fire going, by msg, msg and msg. But why am I not calling? Is it becos I find it meaningless to do so?


In the end, I just gave up. Before Valentine's Day, I was hoping that at least I could get a date but nope. I spent my time with my family in Malaysia. But I had a real hard mind session talk to myself and I had really discovered the truth behind this weird self of mine.


The reason for me wanting a date, wanting someone to hug, etc etc etc is because of the hunger for lust!!! Its more that just for the pretty face. But with my basketball Junior3 years back, I know its love becos my feelings for her never die. Even now there's still some reminiscing. All the girls I tried to date was not becos I'm not good enough or had no balls to call em out. Its becos of my feelings. I never really like em. They're just temporarily a replacement to fill my lust meter but not my love meter. Now that I know the real truth, I can know wat to control and wat not to control.


I guess it not my time to get a girlfriend and stay committed. I can't imagine myself, sitting at the dining table with an attractive woman and saying out romantic words, poems and mushy stuff like that. Buying roses, thinking of creative ways to sent her gifts or b'dae present. And I don't wanna sacrifice my freedom just staying committed to a girl at this very youthful age!!! I'm really not ready for this. Damn. But I know one day, I'm gonna fill this part of my life. For now, lets get on with life.

Countdown to the New Year 2010

Since this 3 weeks of holidays had started, every week, I had at least went to the club once. And yeah it was a heck of an experience. Sexy ladies dancing, hot lads revealing things u wouldn't see normally and even some fat ladies that show off too much fats!!! But all of these were to actually prepare for the Siloso Beach Party.

I thought I was actually late but Cheeyong turned up in casual wear while I was in my beach wear. So feeling outcasted, he changed his attire to beach wear and we went there around 9 plus. upon reaching there, Vivo city was full of people. This is the first time we actually had to que for a damn long period of time just to proceed to the 4th floor. But yeah, it looks like only the people that are going for the Siloso Beach Party are allowed to proceed.

As we arrived at Beach Station, Sentosa, we were greeted with beautiful girls and bikini babes. How wonderful was that? Imagine guys, all of the girls u ever dreamed of. Cute, pretty and sexy. All in bikini!!! Satisfying for the eyes eh? But it looks like we need to que for another one more time to get our tags. And wow. Was the que really long? Its like as if we're auditioning for Singapore Idol!!! But after getting the tickets, we walk into the entrance of Siloso beach and yeah!! its time to partay!!!

We went to check out the Main Area where the party is going on. People were already dancing but I and Cheeyong weren't in the mood yet. Then we went to the bar to fing Hongtat, Youyi, Roy, Weisong, Baohui working there. Then the manager forces us to buy beer?? To hell with them!! I ain't a drinker! Then we went off to get our free drinks which turned out to be Pepsi light.

After that, we started dancing in the Main area. Wohoo!!! On the main stage, there were ladies dancing and showing off their sexy moves that makes ur jaw drop!! But one thing for sure scared me. As I looked upon the girls dancing on the small platform, they stripped into their lingerie!! Yes lingerie!!! And one was even wearing a T-string!!! Holy Macro!! But as I zoomed into their faces, THEY TURNED OUT TO BE TRANNIES!!! NOOOOOOO!!!! Betrayed and injustice befallen upon me. The banglas were grinding with those trannies while gropping their fake boobies and rubbing their fake cunts!!! WHY!!! These trannies deserves to be shot.

After dancing for a while, I saw this caucasian chick seducing her bf. Wow. That's all I have to say. Perfect features. Big blue eyes, Sharp nose, white creamy skin, soft tender lips and long silky brown hair. But what's weird is she notice me looking at her. She gave me a smile? I gave a weird smile. heh. So yeah. I and Cheeyong countdown to the New Year!! Wohoo. The bangla's around me all went wild!!! Some were drunk and crazy! But hey happy new year!!!

Next, we went to the foam party. This is never to be missed as the foam party is darn cool. We dance a while but had to chicken out since its so freaking cold. Rested a while at the locker room area to dry our shorts while Cheeyong grumbles over his broken $50 cheap skate watch. Then saw Krisz, Zhixuan, Jet and Hector. They came too? Should've come with them lor. Soon after, we went back dancing. By the time that happens, it was 3 am. I was so beat!!

From there we dance till show's over. There were many adult women dancing. It'd be weird dancing with em. Since I'm inexperience, I might as well dance alone to the beat of the music. But what shook me that night was that krumping girl!!! She was kinda skinny but dang, the way she krumped, it just sends shiver down my spine but still its sexy and hot. Wohoo!!! She's chinese. After she and the hooligans left, the music became boring and from then on, we just dance till we dropped.

Around 6 plus, we left Sentosa for Harbour Front Center to had our breakfast at Macdonalds and then went home straight afterwards. It was a great experience I tell u. Though I missed out hanging with the Talibans which was assumed to be awesome, this night at Sentosa was great. Next year, I should call more people and maybe some girls to join us!! yeah!

HAPPY 2010 dudes and lads!!! My new year resolution is to be a better man this year, excel in my studies and .......................... :D

St James Powerhouse

For me and Ck, its only our 2nd time in a club but for Cheeyong, Haiyong, Leon and Weihao, its their 1st time. So yeah. All of us dressed up pretty nice and neat as if we're going there to get loose!! Hah!! We looked like as if we're going for a prom nite but in fact, we're just clubbing!!! Damn it.

On the way there, my timbaland boots gave up and its sole just came off. So its like one of my shoe is way higher than the other. But hey that didn't spoil the night. We then waited for Esther, the person that sold us the tickets, to bring us into the club. Then as we enter the club, damn we saw ALOT of people partying and dancing. But most of em are as expected, 16-18 years of age. ll were young but spoilt. The girls wore clothes that reveal their long slender legs, white creamy arms, tight firm ass and had a impressive 'Bouncy Bouncy Smack Smack I'm gonna get a heart attack'. So we enter and wore out light sticks and start dancing.

We saw Jessica and her friends. Boy was she hot. Though 16 but that body can satisfy any age group! Wohoo! Anyway, the club consists of the main dancefloor, the stage which comprises of 2 sections, the Dj booth and of course the bar. We first start entering from the side. I'm finding for a girl that's by herself so that I could ask her for a dance but it seems that all the ladies are wit their guys and galfriends. How sad was that? But we tried sneaking in anyway. Manage to dance with a few ladies but all rather seem interested dancing with their friends. To them, dancing with strangers is like dancing with an irritating bastard. Damn it.

But I saw this lad on the stage grinding her way to a malay guy's thighs. I was like ddddaaammmnnn!!! She's really hot and she can dance really sexy. How lucky can that malay guy be?Sheeesh!! But hey, no ladies? who cares. We just enjoy ourselves and dance to the rhythm of the music like there ain't no tomorrow. Lastly, we dance on the stage while Jessica and her lady friends join us. That's when the fun starts. Jessica was right in front of me. She could dance pretty well. If not for her painful leg? Plus her friend in a white tube top was kinda cool. Yeah. We dance to a few songs. Grinding and grooving ourselves to the beat. Wohoo!! It was great. But some foolish guys went up to dance with the girls so therefore, shows over. Too bad. So we just continue dancing till the whole thing ends.

After that, we end up at Vivo City, slacking and resting till the first train arrives. We board the first train and then to Khatib to have our breakfast. From there, we end our journeys and head back home. Wohoo!! Wat a day it was.